Doctor's Appt Details

Sorry it's so late. Wesley and I got home just a few minutes ago!!! After my doctor appt, we went to dinner, and then we did a little shopping. Before I share the details of today's appt, I just want to say that today I was thinking about something I wrote last night. I said something about how I should be taking care of a newborn and not getting ready for an appt with a specialist. Well, that's not really true. That may be what I would like, that may have been my plan, but that's not God's plan. Obviously it never was. I've said over and over how I desire His will and not my own. I can truly say at this moment, I know His ways are better even if I don't understand. I would not really chose to have Joshua here with us if that meant being out of God's will. There are just moments of weakness when I want my own way. What I should be doing is enjoying the life God has blessed me with and making the most of He has given to me and finding ways to glorify Him in my current circumstances. This is what we all should be doing. I've got a whole 'nother post coming about that sometime soon! :-)

OK, so on with the news. The appointment went very well. My doctor was very pleasant and thorough. The short and long of it is that we will probably never know for sure why we have lost three baby boys. And there's probably nothing to do to prevent anything from happening in the future. Dr. Harper does not think it has anything at all to do with male babies. He gave a lot of information to support his opinion. Basically he said that late, reoccurring miscarriages are one life's big mysteries. There are 6 areas to look at with me and Wesley and we have already tested 5 of these areas. Just to be sure, he is planning to repeat a couple of things and then test the 6 (very unlikely to be a problem) area. I'm not trying to be vague, just trying to keep it short for tonight. I will share more later. He also said the he thinks we have a very odds for delivering a healthy baby in the future. He said there is no medical evidence to suggest we should not try again or that we should even wait to try again. :-) Music to my ears! I just love knowing this door is not closed!!!! However it does bring about a lot of questions and decisions for us to pray about.

The next step as I mentioned earlier is to retest a few things and also test one more area. I should have all this stuff done in about a month. Most of it involves lab work and I will just have blood drawn, but I will also have a mild little in house procedure done. It should not be a big deal at all. One thing we will be checking into that I am a little concerned about is making sure that our insurance will cover this testing at 100%. Our budget just can't take one more thing right now, so hopefully that will be the case and all will be fully covered. Today's visit was just a consultation and did not cost much out of pocket.

My main fear today was that he would say something dreadful that would threaten the chances of us having future biological children. I just don't feel ready to have that door closed. And, at this point I don't necessarily think that is what God is telling us either. In summary everything he said was promising except for stating the obvious fact that based on our history we do have a slight increased risk for future losses. But he said that poses no physical threat to me and no pain to the baby. Of course this was just his preliminary thoughts that he expects to confirm through further testing. Interestingly enough, throughout this journey, I've never really expected that we would for sure find the answers. I'm at peace with that. I'm in good spirits. Hopeful. Wesley and I will continue to pray and seek His will. Even if God should shut the door, we will praise Him! Thanks for praying for us today!

Marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth full well! Psalm 139:14

He hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. Ecclesiastes 3:11

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaish 55:8-9

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28